i am really sorry that you're such a stupid idiot.

So i have been hearing a lot about Phillip Lim lately, and all of the comments are well deserved! Though i don't like everyhing in his spring line, there are some real gems.

Feast your eyes on these decadent beauties! Everything in this post is dedicated to GOLD.


-Georgina Goodman gold and black pumps: featured on my friend's blog Metallic Leggings
-Clive Christian No. 1 Perfume. If I ever get a chance to be even in the vicinity of this perfume I may die. It goes for $900 and up.
-Rose Ring from my guilty pleasure store Forever 21. Not quite as high end as Clive, but still cute especially for $4.
-Porqupine Ring by Boucheron
-Mini Pill Boxes both by Tiffany's the rabbit one is adorable, has the iconic blue and is actually reasonable considering it's from Tiffany's.




Kate Spade has an amazing array of gold items (Stationary with gold filled envelopes, key shaped key chains, flats, and bags). Some of the stuff is pricer, but she always has end of season sales. I saw (and felt) the gold bag recently and it's even better in person.



Agent Provocateur has a new collection out called Jilly. It's gold and wonderful. I've been wanting a pair of high waisted (yet not granny) panties, and a new garter belt as well.



Here are somethings I'd kill for.
-A gold tiffen. I've been obsessed since I was able to get one in Canada this summer. They're Indian food containers and they're perfect for taking my lunch to school. (i'm a dork, ok).
-Gold iPod (not a shuffle though), it's verging on the pointless and gross side, but still, just imagine how amazing it would be.
-Sony Ericsson S500i phone. It dominates over the RAZR
-Louis Vuitton Men's Shoes. I wold probably bow down and cry if I ever saw someone wearing these in person.

Still obsessed with my bags-plorations....and Carlo said I was biting Nylon. FUCK NYLON.





My new bag: it's a super-soft leather MbyMJ bag with a raccoon tail. It's always really heavy with stuff because i always have a camera with me and usually pack sweaters or scarves in case i get cold, along with two notebooks and one for reading...



Butter-soft leather wallet i got from a small designers shop in Italy
Nat Shermans if i fell fancy
My Ipod and Sennheiser headphones that i can't live without
Samsung cellphone
Keys with shiny Marc Jacobs keychain
Pens: rapidographs and thin Pilot pens I can't find anywhere
Knife, perfume, rescue remidy, lighter, rosebud salve and matches
Leather snakeskin cigarette case with Marlboro Lights
Sunglasses from Fabulous Fanny's in NYC
Hand made leather sketchbook i made
Hand made leather planner i re-covered from a planner i bought in Paris
Emile Zola's Germinal for school

Then in the Louis Vuitton bag (it was a gift thank-you-very-much)
Clinique compact
Mini Dove deodorant
Tampons
Rose face blotters
Mac lipstick and lipliner and Nars lip pencil in various shades of red
More perfume
Tiny pillbox with advil and vitamins
Close-up lens for my polaroid camera
Extra hairbands and clips
Earphone splitter that really comes in handy actually.

Post yours in comments.
Photobooth picture Tate and i found in Philadelphia

Aviva and I were having breakfast the other day at Veselka when the idea of what we keep in our bags came about. Usually things in my bag tend to knot around one another, making it impossible to just pick up one thing (Aviva has a clean and tidy bag of course). Most importantly though my bag carries my TRUE essentials.




-Cole Haan Agenda planner Wallet from Holt Renfrew
-Dove original Clean Deodorant
-Oil Removing Powdered Sheets
-Yellow bag filled with: Travel Tobacco Pipe, Holt's Golden Cavendish Blend Tobacco, tamper and Steven Starr matches (see post)
-Keys and Flash Drive adorned with key chains from Claire's (guilty), Marc Jacobs, SuckUK and India
-Two Pairs of Sunglasses: My mothers old ones and a pair of vintage Wayfers
-Rose Balm
-Medication in a spice holder from Container Store
-My own parfum.
-My mother's old Dooney and Bourke bag that manages to hold of of this stuff. Adorned with fox tail and organic silk ribbon dyed with saffron
-Spare necklace: vintage skeleton key and Japanese coin
-Sequined coin purse from my grandmother
-Sephora liquid EyeLiner
-McBloom's pocket sized lotion
-Samsung purple phone
-Leather Sketchbook bound by aiaoe (aka Aviva Rowley)
-Tiffen (Indian Lunch Box)
-Rapidograph (.35) and a 2B Pencil
-iPod
-Mints from Whole Foods or Trader Joes

from a million little pieces pg 79 & 80


i don't want to be alone. i have never wanted to be alone. i fucking hate it. i hate that i have no one to talk to. i hate that i have no one to call, i hate that i have no on e to hold my hand, hug me, tell me everything is going to be all right. i hate that i have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with, i hate that i no longer have any hopes or dreams, i hate that i have no one to tell me to hold on, that i will find them again. i hate that when i scream, i scream bloody murder, that i am screaming into emptiness. i hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming. i hate that what i have turned to in my lonliness lives in a pipe or a bottle. i hate that what i have turned to in my lonliness is killing me, has already killed me, or will kill me soon. i hate that i will die alone. i will die alone in my horror.

more than anything, all i have ever wanted is to be close to someone. more than anything, all i have ever wanted is to feel like i wasn't alone. i have tried many times, tried to kill my lonliness with a girl or a woman, and it was never right. we would be together and feel close to each other and it was never right. no matter how close we were i still felt alone. they felt that lonliness and it made them want to get closer. when they tried i either ran or did something to destroy what we felt for each other. i can run fast when i want to run fast, and i have always been good at destroying things.